I can't believe how big my baby girl is getting. It's crazy. In just a few days she'll be turning 5 years old. Where did the time go? It seems like just yesterday she was still this tiny mystery person that had me afraid to let her go. Even today, I'm holding onto her hand. She's so spontaneous and full of life. Her imagination amazes me everyday. And she's so smart! She is definitely my bundle of joy, my life, my reason for waking up each morning. I'd be lost without my Sunshine.
She still doesn't have any friends. And I feel bad for that. My poor Sunshine is stuck at home everyday with me and her twin brothers. But, she doesn't really complain. Lately though, she has been talking about her "friends". Whom's names are Macaroni, Door, Light and Cutey. It saddens me that she is naming objects and not people. But not much I can do about that. The kids in the neighborhood speak Spanish, and I do not. I keep praying things will change with that.
I know they will once school starts. OMG, school. I want that day, yet I don't. I'm going to have a hard time with letting her on the bus. It's going to make me face reality that she isn't really a baby anymore. It means it will be time to share her with others. I just don't think I'm ready for that step. Then again, are we ever fully ready for that?
Her birthday is March 11th. She keeps talking about how all her friends are coming to her party. It makes me want to cry. There will be no friends coming over. There are no kids to invite. None. And she is going to be so disappointed. She does know what a birthday party is. Tori just had her's not too long ago, and had 4 friends over. Josie wants to enjoy that same thing. I thought of just having Tori's friends over, but that won't go well. They would just ignore Josie. And I think that would be even worse for her.
Please pray I find a way to make my Sunshine's birthday extra special.
My little Miss Josephine has started summer school. I can't believe how big she's getting. In August she'll officially be in Kindergarten. She got on that bus this morning like it was something she's been doing for years already. Probably helped that she had her big sister Tori with her. And a few friends she knows from the neighborhood.
I'm just so proud of her. I didn't receive a single phone call (which just added to my sadness--really means she's growing up). When she came home she was full of grins and told me all about her day. This is going to be a fun month for us all. Her gone at school, and then just me and the twins at home.
