I Survived

Well, I survived my surgery. Was terrible, but I made it. I woke up to some weird tube coming out my back. It was draining blood, just so weird never seen something like that before. They had me on a morphine drip while there. That was nice. Every 8 minutes I was allowed a dose of the good stuff.

The worst part, ugh I don't even know. Probably when I had to pee. They wanted me to use a bed pan. How does anyone ever do that?? I just couldn't. I tried, and failed. I just couldn't pee while laying down. No matter how hard I tried. I mean, I felt like I would burst, but couldn't get it out.

The other fun part was my blood pressure. It was amazingly low. Which is why I was being forced to use a bed pan (they did let me use a toilet, after I did tons of crying each time). I felt fine, but they didn't believe me. So they kept forcing more fluids in me. which just caused it to lower even more.

My mother in law is driving me crazy. She's acting like I can't still be a parent. She refuses to follow our routines. Just because I can't pick up the babies does NOT mean I can't let her know how things are done. And James just keeps telling me to let it go. Yeah, so not easy.

Oh well, I'm tired and hurting. Going back to bed.

Save the Date

Just wanted to quickly post an update. They finally called me back with a date. My surgery is to be May 12th. I can't believe it will be so soon. No time to prepare. I won't have much help. My mom of all people won't be here. She's too busy with other things in life. And I don't have local friends to help me out afterwards. James will only be home for that weekend then back to work he goes.

Well, keep me in your thoughts and prayers. Hopefully everything works out. Oh by the way, my after surgery help will be my mother-in-law. Have I mentioned she's overweight, diabetic, and nearly blind? I'm not sure how much help she can be. I'm not sure how long I can survive around her. I love her, but I can't stand her more then a couple days. She's planning to stay for at least a week.

Please save me.

No Other Choice

Seems I've run out of options. I'm so tired of dealing with the pain and physical therapy is a joke. I leave that place in even more pain. I made the call today to move forward with the surgery. Now I'm just waiting for them to call me back with the date.

I'm rather nervous about it. The doctor did tell me the only thing it would fix is my leg pain. Which is to include the pain in my ankle. I'm really hoping it will help with my back also. It's so rough to not be able to get down on the floor and play with my kids.

Ugh, the waiting game. Who ever likes that?

Signed

Super Mommy