I know that was very immature and mean. But you know what, I wanted her to know what it felt like. I was so sick of the way she kept treating me. Oh well, let her birth mother have fun with all that. They were made for each other.
I've been trying to explain to Josie, that Nicole is not coming back. So far she seems un-phased by it and just keeps asking if she can sleep on her (Nicole's) bed. It's kinda sad really. Of course I told Josie yes she could sleep there. But made she to keep explaining she would not see Nicole again.
It's so sad. The three youngest kids will grow up not knowing her. Wow, I just realized we don't even have a picture of her on the wall. Not on purpose though. Miles had knocked it down (along with a few other pictures) and I just haven't got around to putting it back up. As it stands, Nicole isn't even allowed to come over to visit on the weekends. She caused too much stress.
Now, I"m not the only one with these feelings. James (her dad) feels the same way. In fact, it was his idea to send her to live with her mom. Not mine. I was looking for other solutions. I even suggested a summer at my mom's. This way, it was just a couple months. Plus it would be during summer vacation. Of course, he didn't go for that idea. He thinks my parents are too weird. Can't blame him there lol.
She will be missed. I just hope one day she wakes up and realizes that I was there by her side all along.
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