When the World Spins

Well it's day 2 of the Neurontin.  I started it yesterday, but only took 2 doses instead of 3.  It was late afternoon when I got the prescription and it said not to take two doses at once.

Last night I just felt funny.  Almost as though I was drunk.  And that was with just the first dose I took.  And it made me drowsy.  I started falling asleep while trying to read.  I figured me being tired already was playing a major role in that.  But today I'm not so sure.

I took the first dose around 9am, and an hour later my mom could tell a difference.  And we were just talking on the phone, she wasn't even here with me (not that she could be, she lives 4 hours away haha).  She said I was starting to talk faster and some of my words were jumbled.  Which I also noticed but didn't really pay attention too.  Now it's several hours later and I'm noticing more.  I'm really tired.  I feel weak.  Such as, I need to fold laundry.  But I can't lift the basket to get it to the room I need.  I mean, I could, but I just feel too weak to bother trying.  I'd rather just leave my arms relaxed.

I'm also feeling a little clumsy.  I keep fumbling over the small things I am picking up.  I can't walk straight, seem to be tripping over my own feet again haha.  This really isn't good considering I have kids to take care of.  I want to be fully functional.  Or at least not feeling clumsy and weak.

I just feel REALLY relaxed.  I could totally drift off to lala land if I would allow myself.  I've also got this weird tingling feeling in my mouth.  I don't know if it's related to the medicine or not, but figure I might as well mention it.  Keep track of how I'm feeling.

I'm texting a friend right now.  And wow it's so not easy.  I keep fumbling over the keys, something I never do. Same thing is happening as I type.  I'm by no means a speed typer, but I am known for going rather quickly.  Drives James nuts to hear the constant click of my keyboard because of how fast I type.  But I'm finding myself using the backspace button quite a bit right now.

I'm really not sure how long I should put up with the side effects before telling myself it's just not worth it.  I know for some people the side effects are temporary.  But how long do they last if it's just temporary?  A month?  A week?  Several months?  I think I'll give it two weeks.  Unless of course the side effects get worse.  I really want to go read but this medicine has me too unfocused to do that.  So I'll try to eat some food (really doesn't feel like I have the energy to lift a fork to my mouth and actually chew.  That's bad haha).  After I attempt lunch I'll try for a nap.  Twins aren't asleep yet so I'm not wasting time.  Maybe by the time I'm ready to lie down they'll be asleep.  They are in bed for a nap.

Well, I'm off.  I'll be back later if things seem worse or different.  I did just take dose number two.  I'm thinking pizza for dinner tonight.  Either that or James will have to cook.  I don't think I'll be able to do it.

Signed,
Super Mom

Doctor, Doctor!

Well, I finally did it.  I made myself a doctor's appointment.  And it wasn't a specialist.  The last time I went to the spine surgeon he told me I needed to get a PCP if I wanted to continue using pain medicines.  That was back in January.  Two months later, and I finally made the call.  Of course, I only did because I ran out of pain meds.  But hey, it was done.

Overall, I think the appointment went well.  Though I did have a moment of silent panic.  I was afraid he wasn't going to give me anything.  Even though in my medical records (sent from the spine surgeon) it said it would be good for me to continue using narcotics with my normal minimal use.  The PCP started giving me a long lecture on narcotic use and why doctors are not giving them out so easily.  And he made a strong point to tell me it's not something he likes to do.  I listened to what he had to say and told him I understood his point.  I also told him I was willing to try non-narcotics, I just wanted relief.

We also discussed my insomnia.  Remember my "popcorn kernel" post?  My brain is just too frazzled to sleep at night.

In the end, I got some medicine.  He gave me a 2 month supply of Vicodin (60 pills, that's plenty) and Neurontin to use for long term management.  He did say it was going to be a trial with the Neurontin, but I'm willing to give it a try.  Personally I'd rather take a non-narcotic even if it means taking it several times a day.  I don't have any bad side effects from narcotics, but you just never know when one might sneak up on you.  And I don't want to become addicted.  So, fingers crossed it works!

He also gave me Trazodone to help me sleep.  Again, a trial thing.  He said it may or may not work.  And again, I'm willing to try anything.

The side effects of the two new medicines kind of scare me.  Suicidal actions, major mood and behavior changes, nerve pain, insomnia (haha go figure right?), nightmares.  I realize these are just possible side effects and not everyone experiences them.  But it's still rather scary to think about.  So I'm going to make sure James knows to keep an eye out for those things, just in case I don't notice them.

That's about it for now.  Zoe is barking to go outside and the kids are crabbing.  Pretty sure they want some dinner.  An aspect of the day that hasn't even crossed my mind yet.  So I have to figure out what to feed them.  I'm exhausted.  I just want to grab my book and crawl into bed.  I did a lot of cleaning today.  And then going to the doctor and walking around Walmart waiting for my prescriptions.  It took a lot of out me.  My back really hurts, but I'm holding off on the pain meds.  I want to see if I can just skip it tonight.  I figure if I can manage 3 more hours then I should be good.  I'm hoping the Trazodone helps me just sleep through it.  Don't they say sleep is a good medicine?

Signed,
Super Mom

Meet Zoe

So it's been a couple weeks since I've been back to post.  I always mean to do it, I just become distracted.  Which happens very easily.  Tonight, I want to take a moment to introduce the newest family member, Zoe.

My darling husband brought her home March 2nd.  Apparently I can't let him out of my sight.  We had discussed getting a new dog, but we weren't dead set on getting one right away.  Or so I thought.  Just like I thought we agreed no more PUPPIES, and that we would adopt from our local animal shelter.

That didn't go as planned, at all.  James found a woman giving her away at the back end of our local Walmart parking lot.  He had just dropped me off to go grocery shopping.  We seen her, I joked and said "well give me a call if I need to add puppy food to the list".  Apparently he took me seriously because 20 minutes later he sent me a picture message and requested puppy stuffs.

He was told Zoe was about 7 weeks old.  I'm not sure if I agree with that.  Hard to explain, but I almost think she's a tad younger.  It's all in her teeth.  They just don't feel that strong.  She still can't manage solid hard food well, I have to add water to soften it for her.

Zoe (pronounced like Zoey) is very lovable.  She gets along with everyone, kids and cats included.  Well, mostly.  She doesn't seem to "like" the girls very well, but loves me.  She is in no way aggressive.  However, if Tori or Josie try to pet her, Zoe takes off running all the while she's whining also.  I took her to the neighbor's house for an introduction.  Again, when their 4 year old daughter reached to pet her, Zoe began to yelp and whine.  At Josie's birthday party, she did the same if any of the girls tried to pet her.  If she noticed a little girl coming towards her she would saunter off with her tail tucked.  I'm not sure the reason.  Neither of my girls have hurt her, not even on accident.

That first day we had her, she spent most her time following James.  If he was outside, she would sleep near my feet.  But the moment she heard him enter the house she was on his toes.  That changed by the end of the night.  Now she follows me everywhere.  And if she can't see me, she will whine.  The other day I was taking Laney out (our other dog, I'll introduce her in another post), I could hear Zoe whining inside.  When I came back in, there she was, sitting at the door waiting for me.

Zoe does have a bad habit I don't like at all.  Ok several, but most are just puppy things (such as chewing on things she shouldn't).  It appears Zoe pees when she's excited.  We put our dogs in crates at night, not together but in their own.  Every morning when I let her out, she's super excited.  Jumps all over the place.  And pees while at it.  When I first noticed it I thought perhaps she just really had to go.  Until later that afternoon.  I had taken a nap without her.  So when she seen me again, she was super excited.  And of course peed.  If I pick her up right after letting her out of her crate, she still goes, while suspended in air (I've learned to hold her away from me first thing in the morning).  She'll still potty once you get her outside.  I'm really hoping this is just a puppy thing and she doesn't continue this.  Though I have met some "adult" dogs (not old, just no longer puppies) that do this same thing.

While we may not have adopted Zoe from the animal shelter, she's still a definite keeper.  According to the person James acquired her from, the previous owner left her behind (something about the Parking Lot Woman's neighbor had a dog who had puppies.  They couldn't find a home for Zoe before moving, so they just left her behind.  Parking Lot Woman found her running into the street and took her in to try and rehome her).  So I suppose in the end, we did still end up rescuing a dog.  I still had high hopes of getting an older dog (a dog that was 2+ years old).  Puppies are easy to find homes for, but many older dogs aren't as lucky.

So there you have it.  Our newest family member.  She still needs to visit the vet.  And I'm thinking we'll try to do that this weekend.  I'm pretty sure our vet's office is open on Saturdays.  I'll have to double check that.  If they aren't, then there is a day they are open later in the evening (I know it's one of those, but can't remember which).

Signed,

Super Mom